This thing happened

Something big happened to me today. With me. I’m going to be vague despite the heaviness of detail, realism and wonder involved. Despite the fact that detail is my thing. I’m just a little too exhausted right now. And my eyes hurt. And I probably won’t post this but maybe I will. I should go to bed but I witnessed an usually significant moment and I need to write it down. Like in a Captain’s log. It happened in a rare-beast-spotted kind of way. The animal lingers. You sit down and it wanders over. Lays its head on your lap or nudges you with nose or antler. It’s all warm and wild presence. Lucid. Shapes shift and reality moves like heat rising off pavement on a really hot day. That kind of thing. And you are awake.

Imagine that when you were young you had a dream. And you dreamed it with intensity and conviction. Eventually though, reality set in, the dream started looking a little more dreamy than reasonable and over time it went away. Life is good. More time passes and you actually forget the dream. Years go by and then one day about a month ago, someone phones you up and says “so about that dream”.

You didn’t ask for this. Didn’t look for it. Didn’t wish it. Life gets very surreal. Daunting. You draw pictures, twist wire, model clay, take photos and materialize an idea. Working almost entirely in the dark. Head down. Working hard but careful not to invest anything more than a little hope and a lot of wonder into what is taking place. It’s quite the little detour but, you know, let’s just keep it real.

This morning I visited the man who made the call. Showed him my answer to his question. It was not what he expected. Not at all. I am not disappointed he said more than once as his pleasure grew. I told him that none of this had been real for me until right now. I just couldn’t let it be. He walked me to the top of the stairs, we were both laughing. He asked about costs, timelines and materials as he handed me a new key to the future.

Not the finest piece of writing I’ve ever done, but that’s okay… its been quite a day.

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9 thoughts on “This thing happened

  1. Seems to me like when you were young, “You drew the dream, twisted its shape, molded the appearance, took mental snapshots” and today the dream materialized!

  2. You did it whatever it is because of; ‘a little hope and a lot of wonder into what is taking place. It’s quite the little detour but, you know, let’s just keep it real’ … and this is exactly how it works! Those are the precise and necessary ingredients! Very happy for you!
    All the Best
    Daniela

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